What am I glad I’ve lost?

A lot of fear. Some fear remains, but at least I’m not fearing the end of the world now. At least I’m not fearing God, and all his myriad ways to punish: flood, fire, disease, pestilence…

It’s a lot to blame on 3 letters, no?

It sounds like God became the scapegoat and the eternal parent for us all… convenient, huh?

I don’t think I’ve lost God. I don’t think I’ve lost God, because I believe and understand that God is a construct humans made up to help us understand the inexplicable. Babies dying? God’s will. A fire that destroyed a town? They must have been sinners!

But THAT is the step that is not needed. That’s a step we could lose. I’m glad I’ve lost the belief that we bring all these things upon ourselves. Early humans even understood that we were so powerless over so much - so intensely connected and yet not - and they tried to chalk up what they had no power over to something…or someone… gods. Goddesses Yahweh. Devil. Good. Evil. Hell. Purgatory…

We made it all up.

And yet some people cannot lose their religion.

I’m so glad I lost mine.

I want to lose some of the anger though.

Because I am angry - I'm angry at the MILLIONS of people who use religious differences to score the physical shit they want.

Israel and Gaza? It’s not about religion. Please. It’s about land. It’s about made-up shit that a bunch of men decided was important.

It’s not.

And that makes me angry. It makes me angry because I see through them, so many of us do, and they make it seem like we’re wrong.

These men with guns are trying to gaslight the world into thinking this is how humans should be co-existing.

But men with guns can be very convincing, no?

I’m ready to lose the guns. I’ve never owned a gun, never will, so i don’t have to worry about losing any. But I want the world to lose guns. And I haven't lost hope in that goal. I never will.